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[feotakahari]

Real talk, I would be so much happier if I was religious. My immune system is destroying my guts, my sweat glands, and now probably my kidneys. The doctors say my test results aren’t bad enough to worry yet, but I wake up terrified I’m gonna die. I almost wish I could believe there was something after this. But I can’t make myself the kind of person who would believe in something just because it’s comforting.