feotakahari

Sometimes I think too hard about a problem, and my nearsighted eye starts to hurt, and it keeps hurting and hurting for days, and the pain keeps me from sleeping. Dim/no light doesn’t work. Bright light doesn’t work. Medium light doesn’t work. Lying flat doesn’t work. Resting in a chair doesn’t work. Light exercise doesn’t work. Heat doesn’t work. Cold doesn’t work. An eyepatch on my bad eye doesn’t work. An eyepatch on my good eye doesn’t work. Painkillers both legal and illegal don’t work. I want to vomit out the pain like thick black smoke, or wail until I pass out, or cut this damn eye out of my head.

My current theory is that it’s multi-stage. First I give myself eyestrain. The pain makes my nose run, and my sinuses get clogged and give me a sinus headache. The sinus meds seem to be working. I hate that it took me this long to figure out.

(Yes, I tried glasses. They get smudged, and I try to clean them, and they’re still smudged, and I try to clean them, and they’re still smudged, and looking through the smudges gives me a headache.)