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Shieldfoss wrote about how loot grinding in games like Diablo doesn’t fit the tone of fantasy stories where magic weapons are rare and special. I’d like to propose that the loot treadmill might fit the tone of children’s mecha anime, where every episode introduces a new accessory to purchase from toystores near you.

I tried writing again

I knew from the start that this story was going to be horrifying, but I thought I could do something interesting that I hadn't seen before. It felt clever, subversive even, as I built up a sense of dread. Now I'm right before the scene where the claws come out. If I do my job right, it's going to be brutal and visceral and nauseating. And I don't want to write this.

I hate that this is what my brain comes up with whenever I try to write a story. That's part of why I gave up writing before, because I was tired of writing scenes that made me feel miserable. I would love to be a writer whose stories are gentle and comforting, if those were the ideas I had in my head. As it is, I'm not sure it's worth it to keep hurting myself to try to write more.