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Nov. 22nd, 2020 07:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
feotakahariI reblog the woke stuff about not liking top/bottom, but it's not really a woke thing for me personally. I would much rather work according to someone else’s plan than write the plan for someone else's work. I finish what I'm doing, then ask someone else if they need help, and I do what they need according to the instructions they provide. People who think in terms of top/bottom would think of me as a bottom. And the idea of someone trying to be my top who takes over my life and makes all my decisions for me makes me feel like someone vomited inside my soul.
(I'm not sure people understand what I mean by that. Like when I run too hard, and I say it feels like I swallowed my own throat and it's painfully digesting. Or when I took that one antidepressant, and it made me feel like my bones were bubbling and liquefying under my skin. They try to distill it down to something like "it hurts" or "it feels warm." When I say it feels like someone vomited inside my soul--imagine your soul is a container and someone vomited inside it. That's how it feels.)
(I'm not sure people understand what I mean by that. Like when I run too hard, and I say it feels like I swallowed my own throat and it's painfully digesting. Or when I took that one antidepressant, and it made me feel like my bones were bubbling and liquefying under my skin. They try to distill it down to something like "it hurts" or "it feels warm." When I say it feels like someone vomited inside my soul--imagine your soul is a container and someone vomited inside it. That's how it feels.)
